I hate my life

I am having a serious pity party for myself today.  I've been on the verge of tears all day.  I'm unhappy, my kids are unhappy...when is it going to get better?  I know people are worse off than me, much worse, but I do think we are allowed to feel sorry for ourselves once in a while aren't we?  Of course, its all about money and lack of it.  Got my final notice for the hydro bill today.  I missed my car payment this month.  Christmas, fucking Christmas, is coming way too fast.  I hate Christmas...how's that for spirit?  It's great when you're a kid and you believe in Santa but when you grow up and reality hits, its all about fucking spending money...money I don't have.  I had to go to Money Mart for a pay day loan yesterday just so I could cover my fucking rent.  Oh yes, its one of those days, weeks, months, years....FML!!!